Love?

i loved once @ Sunday, April 30, 2006

Hmm. I had actually wanted to make my own skin one cause all the skins in blogskin I really dont like. Then, through heaven's will, I chanced upon THIS skin(the one I'm using now). Nice hor?!

Good good. Save me from all the hassle of starting from scratch. I even asked WC about the skn already. That's why I said this is heaven's will!

I almost overslept this morning(had to wake up at a freaking 7am for work!) but luckily I asked my mum to wake me up or I would had died a beautiful death. I couldnt hear the my alarm ring again. I may be going deaf soon.

Anyway work suxs like hell(as usual) and times seems to be crawling and crawling and c r a w l i n g . . . . . . . . . .

Well, stupid James asked me to pass him the ear plugs during his breaktime which was supposed to be from 3 - 5pm. Then I purposely took at late break at 3.30 for him and he came out only at around 4. How frustating! Wasted half an hr of my breaktime waiting for him to come out! Then he asked me to accompany him to UOB to deposit money(James is very rich!) and I was nearly scorched to death in the hot sun. While I was melting in the sun, James was enjoying the suntan process.

As he is training in Jurong Island now for his attachment later on, he told me about what he is doing in the Island. The funny thing is, he said they were treated like gardener and had to climb ladders and all that. And that, gave him the determination that he must get a degree in order to 出人头地 cause he doesnt want to so all the sai gang.

Anyway after depositing the money, James walked me back to Takashimaya but shy off before he actually reaches the place. He doesnt want to talk to irrelevant people he said. Funny guy he is.

Went home after work but not before going to Bee chang hiang for pork floss! Pork floss is very nice when eaten with rice one ok =)

After dinner, I ate this:

Want me not fat is fake one. Even if I dont buy these things, my dad will. He wants to make me fat. He is in occasional fear that I may be malnutritioned, which is very strange cause I am so fat so I most definitely do not need nutrition from chocolates. By the way, those whom hasnt seen my sis before, the one in striped t-shirt is her. look at her long fingers. Scary!!

Hmm, I watching this show right now. Very funny. I find the male actor, Johnny(stage name) is very yandao in this show. Remember he acted in Meteor Garden, I find him so-so only.

This view is even better,

Anyway, its so funny this show. This yandao Johnny encouraging the female actress was hilarious!

The female actress(cute hor?):

The oath to a slim and beautiful figure!!

When you're alone, nowhere to go while everyone else are enjoying themselves on a Saturday night, watch channel U! Jolin tsai show. Fantastic!

I'm sleeping.

Goodnight!

..to be continued..

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i loved once @ Saturday, April 29, 2006

THIS is the bag i bought yesterday.

Not nice meh?

My bag kanna instant criticism from my sis and mum the moment they saw my bag. Because I'm the very very indecisive sort, I instantly felt very down and wanted to go back to the shop to do an exchange for another design. Budden laziness took over + I really like ths bag so I din.

I took my new bag happily to school today and Angela thought it is an old bag that I'd left forgotten. Sad. Chris gave no comments and Linchong told me straight away that this bag is not nice and decided to make me feel worse by asking me bout my Addidas bag saying that my Addidas bag is nicer. Linchong is so NICE and TACTFUL hor.

I made up my mind to go and do an exchange until Meiyun came along and commented that my bag is quite nice(actually I very shiok inside but still very hesitant cos its a 4 Vs 1 thing). Then, after much consideration, we decided to ask Sylvester(he very handsome)! He said it looks ok, quite nice actually. Phew, the load was lifted off my chest instantly and I happily went to orchard immediately wfter school without going back home for the receipts to change. So happy!

So I was the first to reach Orchard cause Meiyun and Angela both returned home first to do their things. I shopped around for around 1 hr before Angela reaches. I saw this to at Forever21 which I liked very much but dint buy cause I couldnt decide whether it was nice on me and that the price was quite steEP. Then I saw this pair of shorts at Topshop which I like alot but the price was atrocious and the pants was too loose. So I forgo that as well.

Then I got quite sick of wisma and walked over to Fareast where I bought this:

Waaaa.. Like it alot leh. Cause:

1) The price's okay.

2) Finally found the size for me(S is usually too small and M is enormous).

3) The sales girl very polite.

4) The colour I like.

5) The button I like.

6) The everything also I like(ok, I know I'm starting to crap already)

Point is, I like it so much that I bought it immediately. Which is very rare. I hardly(no, should say never before buy things without prior opnions from others).

So, please, please, please, if anyone ever sees me wear it and thinks that it is not nice at all. DONT tell me. Ok? I'll severe all ties which ANYONE whom criticizes my pants. And I mean business. DONT DONT SAY not nice OK? I REPEAT AGAIN, CANNOT SAY NOT NICE!! MUST SAY ITS NICE!!

Hmm after my pants, I met up with Angela and then with Meiyun. Then we shopped around and I bought one top(fake Mango Lol) which I like very much and the shop doesnt have a new piece and I bought the last piece(actually the shop have a new piece, But the sleeve was sewn on the wrong side. This purchase is the best of today. The top looks exactly the same as the Mango top which I wanted to get 3 weeks ago @ Mango but couldnt cause they ran out of size. And the Mango version costs $49. I purchased mine @ ard 20 bucks. Freaking cheap right? Lol. But of cause with no deny The Mango top is of better quality =)

After all the shopping, we went cineleisure for dinner. I ate some breaded fish set and they as fried Udon(I'm getting hungry thinking of food..). Then we walked around for awhile and Meiyun bought beach slippers for her "Xiang Gong" before rushing off to her chalet. Angela and me went Blossomz and she chanced upon a pair of shoes which she quite liked. But she dint buy eventually because she was very fan nao about which one to buy(the Blossomz or Mitju). I think she's still considering now.

And we still thought it was early and we literally STROLLED over to Somerset MRT station in time to hear the "last train for marina already gone" announcement. Sway.

We took 162 to AMK (to save some money) and walked for awhile before flagging a cab. Walking halfway, We heard a twig snap behind us and Angela turned behind first followed by me. By the way I thought I heard footsteps but she dint. Funny huh. Anyway, I started blabbering because I can feel my hair standing. Luckily nothing funny happened after that or I would had peed in my pants.

Shall be home earlier next time.

Going out in the dark is damn scary.

..to be continued..

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i loved once @ Friday, April 28, 2006

Finally met up with Weishan today after so damn long. She still as pretty as before.

I went moshi moshi to get a gift for her before meeting up. I bought this heart-shaped diamond studded earings for her which I like very much also. Hmm. shall get myself one next time. Cause I don wanna carry so much things around.

Well we went for suki sushi and she treated me to it cause she very paisei that she din have anything for me. I din let her treat initially but she insisted so I gave in.

Luckily I did, cause after that I wanted to buy a bag that that shop doesnt accept NETs!
And my cash was just nice.

Thanks Weishan for that treat!

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i loved once @ Thursday, April 27, 2006

I found this in the net. Sounds silly la. Obviously the writer is trying his best to side with his male counterparts.

6 Kinda Strange Boyfriend Behaviors

In the beginning, guys go out of their way to show they care with blatant, over-the-top gestures. Learn why you shouldn't panic when, over time, his actions take a surprising turn.
When you first start dating a guy, it's easy to fall hard and fast. The reason: He's on an all-out mission to charm the pants off you... literally and figuratively.

"The wooing stage is about selling himself and putting his best foot forward," says Calgary, Canada, sexologist Trina Read, Ph.D.

Once he's succeeded in sweeping you off your feet though, you'll start to notice various changes in him. Some are nice — he seems so much more comfortable with you, for instance. But others may come across as negative or just plain bizarre.
Here's a surprise: That kind of behavior can actually confirm that he's stuck on you like glue. Confused? Don't worry, we explain it all here.

(That's why I always says men are bastards always out to cheat. Fuck la)

1. He Shows His Vulnerability

Many guys think women are looking for the kind of dude who exudes strength and confidence minus the macho bit. So that's the kind of persona he likely tried to cultivate when he was pursuing you. Once he's accomplished that, he may let his softer side emerge.

"Most men want to appear strong and in control, but behind that facade, they want to be nurtured," says Henry Cloud, Ph.D., author of How to Get a Date Worth Keeping.
So once he feels that love connection with you, you're the one he'll look to when he needs comforting. If you play your cards right during your guy's time of need, he'll get into the habit of letting down his emotional guard and opening up to you more often. And what girl doesn't want an emotionally available man? So just listen, try to empathize with him and offer your support.

"By positively reinforcing his vulnerable behavior, you're encouraging him to be that way with you," says Los Angeles-based psychologist Yvonne Thomas.
But beware of the "mommy" trap. "He wants understanding, not babying," says Cloud.
And make sure you don't let these heart-to-hearts become a one-way street. It's important for you to turn to him when you need comforting as well.
Says Thomas: "Being vulnerable with each other can help make the relationship stronger."

(Ya, wanna be vulnerable might as well go find a macho guy whom you can be as frail as possible..)

2. He Takes Fights to the Finish

Despite their penchant for body-crushing sports and blood-and-guts action flicks, guys tend to shy away from confrontations with chicks.
"Many men feel overwhelmed fighting with their partners," says Don Ferguson, Ph.D., author of Reptiles in Love.
"They are not as comfortable expressing their emotions as they perceive women to be and, therefore, try to avoid contentious situations."
So if your man steps outside his comfort zone to duke it out with you (verbally, of course), it's a pretty sure sign that he's in this twosome for the long term.
"A man who is willing to stand up to you and assert himself intends to be around awhile," says Ferguson.
"If he wasn't that interested, he'd play the compliant card."
Granted, arguing may not be your idea of fun, but it can actually bring you and your man closer. "Couples build intimacy through conflict," says Ferguson. "It 's how they deepen their knowledge of each other."
The trick is knowing how to fight fair. It's not about name-calling, blaming or even winning. "When you are fighting for things that are important and to resolve a problem, you'll both end up more satisfied in the relationship," says Cloud.

(A real gentlemen should give in to his girl no matter what. Fighting back makes him look like a loser, to me at least.)

3. He Guards His Guy Habits

Men are fiercely protective of their buddy time. But when a guy is in hot pursuit, sex trumps the boys, and he'll be available for the woman he's with pretty much any time she wants him. That explains why you and your man spent so much together time early on in the relationship.

But once that love bond is formed, they feel the need to balance out their social life and reclaim playtime with their buds again. So it makes sense that once your guy realizes he's hooked on you, he'll try to carve out more male-bonding opportunities. It doesn't mean he's cutting you loose; it's just his way of overcompensating for falling so hard.
"His fears about losing his independence may lead to his need to assert his autonomy so he can prove to himself — and to you — that love hasn't taken away his freedom," says Deborah Anapol, Ph.D., author of The Seven Natural Laws of Love.
The best way to deal with these new interruptions in your 24/7 together time is to give him some slack. Matt,* 31, can vouch for that. "I really love being with my girlfriend, Jenny, but when it initially dawned on me that I had been spending all of my time with her, I kind of freaked," he recalls. "My previous girlfriends always gave me a hard time when I wanted to be with just my friends. But the first time I decided to go out of town with the guys, she told me she was glad because it gave her a chance to see her own friends. Knowing she had plenty going on in her life without me was a relief."
Jenny's one smart cookie. By sending the message that she wasn't going to crumble without him, Matt didn't feel trapped and desperate to get in his guy time. "It's important to allow him his space and to take your own and trust that it will even out," says Anapol. "The best thing you can do when your guy pulls back is to take your attention off him and keep it on yourself."

(This is crap. )

4. He Stops Talking as Much

You already know that guys aren't big on emoting. So when you start dating a dude who's willing to talk to you for hours on end, sharing all the juicy details of his life, you probably feel like you've snagged a rare gem. That is, until you're an actual couple and he adopts a monosyllabic conversation MO. It's understandable that you'd feel like he's shutting you out, but he's letting you know (not deliberately) that he's content and comfortable with you.

"If your formerly verbal guy becomes close-mouthed, it means that he feels so relaxed with you, he doesn't need to impress you anymore," explains Thomas. "Once there's a real connection, you can be together without talking. It's a deeper form of intimacy because you're being more genuine with each other."

(Let's just say he's not interested anymore.)

5. He Wants Less Sex

It's pretty hard to top that high you get during the lust-fueled beginning of a relationship. So when that inevitably cools off a bit, it can be soul-crushing. But his downshifted libido doesn't necessarily signal that he's no longer into you. "A decrease in sex can often mean that a couple is connecting in other ways, so they're not as driven by lust," says Cloud.

It can also mean that he knows there will be plenty of time for fooling around, so he doesn't feel desperate to get it on with you whenever you hit the sack.

That's what Lucy, 28, discovered. "In the beginning, Peter and I had tons of amazing sex," she recalls. "So after a while, when he'd occasionally spend the night and just go to sleep, I got worried. One night, when we got home late from a party and he didn't want to get it on, I called him on it. He looked at me like I was crazy, then explained that he was simply tired — no big deal."

Ironically, less sex may actually be good for your relationship. "As your partner grows to care about you more, he starts sharing other parts of himself, such as his mind and heart, rather than just his body," says Thomas. "That's the difference between lust and love."

(He needs viagra, maybe Tongkat Ali if viagra's unaffordable.)

6. He Shows His Kinky Side

As you and your guy get closer, you may not be having as much sex, but you can definitely have much better sex. Translation: A deeper connection means carnal quality over quantity. And more creativity. That's because when your man feels tight with you, he'll be more inclined to suggest some kinkier bedroom activities, because he's not worried that you'll bolt or think he's a perv. "He trusts you and feels safe enough to reveal things without worrying about your judging or rejecting him," says Thomas.

So don't judge or reject him when he does bring up some new erotic ideas. Of course, you don't have to indulge him either. But be gentle when you turn him down. Simply saying something like, "That just doesn't turn me on" should suffice. Then you can counter his suggestion with one of your own. It will help ease any discomfort he might feel about being shot down, and you will probably get what you want in bed as well.

Even if you don't turn him down, communicating your desires will improve your lust life...and boost your bond. "Sharing and experimenting with each other's more private fantasies can be powerfully intimate and strengthen your relationship," says Thomas. Hotter sex and a tighter connection? It doesn't get much better than that.

(Enough said, he is a pervert.)

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My Favouriteeee

如果不是那镜子不想你　不藏秘密
我还不肯相信没有你我的笑　更美丽
那天听你在电话里　略带抱歉的关心
我嘟的一声切的比你说分手　彻底

泪湿的衣洗干净　阳光里晒干回忆
折好了伤心明天起只和快乐　出去
这爱的城市虽然拥挤　如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异　我的笑她无法代替

离开你我才发现自己　那爱笑的眼睛
流过泪　像躲不过的暴风雨　淋湿的昨天删去
离开你我才找回自己　那爱笑的眼睛
再见爱情　我一定让自己　让自己决定

泪湿的衣洗干净　阳光里晒干回忆
折好了伤心明天起只和快乐　出去
这爱的城市虽然拥挤　如果真的遇见你
你不必讶异　我的笑她无法代替

离开你我才发现自己　那爱笑的眼睛
流了泪　当一个人看旧电影　是我不小心而已
离开你我才找回自己　那爱笑的眼睛
再见到你　我一定让自己　让自己坚定

离开你我才发现自己　那爱笑的眼睛
流过泪　像躲不过的暴风雨　淋湿的昨天忘记
离开你我才找回自己　那爱笑的眼睛
再见爱情　我一定让自己　让自己　坚定

再见到你　我一定让自己
假装很　坚定

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SHE

泪有点咸有点甜
你的胸膛吻着我的侧脸
回头看踏过的雪慢慢融化成草原
而我就像你没有一秒曾后悔

爱那么绵那么粘
管命运设定要谁离别
海岸线越让人流连
总是美得越蜿蜒
我们太倔强连天都不忍再反对

深情一眼挚爱万年
几度轮回恋恋不灭
把岁月铺成红毯见证我们的极限
心疼一句珍藏万年
誓言就该比永远更远
要不是沧海桑田真爱怎么会浮现

泪有点咸有点甜
你的胸膛吻着我的侧脸
回头看踏过的雪慢慢融化成草原
而我就像你没有一秒曾后悔

爱那么绵那么粘
管命运设定要谁离别
海岸线越让人流连
总是美得越蜿蜒
我们太倔强连天都不忍再反对

深情一眼挚爱万年
几度轮回恋恋不灭
把岁月铺成红毯见证我们的极限

心疼一句珍藏万年
誓言就该比永远更远
要不是沧海桑田真爱怎么会浮现

深情一眼挚爱万年
几度轮回恋恋不灭
把岁月铺成红毯见证我们的极限
心疼一句珍藏万年
誓言就该比永远更远
要不是沧海桑田
真爱怎么会浮现

怪就怪先峰冷雨顺乱在眼前

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Very sweet song by Tank

小时候我总会这样牵着你的手
只是盼望能够在你的身边守候
为了保护你不小心割破手指头
这个小伤却让你流泪心痛
长大后我们越来越远分隔地球的两边
何时才能够见面熟悉微笑的脸

回忆起我们小时候
闭上眼睛就能感受
在我们心中慢慢流动的温柔
离开了我们小时候
现在你会不会想我
也许你找到一个人为你守候我了了

小时候我总会这样牵着你的手
只是盼望能够在你的身边守候
为了保护你不小心割破手指头
这个小伤却让你流泪心痛
长大后我们越来越远分隔地球的两边
何时才能够见面熟悉微笑的脸

回忆起我们小时候
闭上眼睛就能感受
在我们心中慢慢流动的温柔
离开了我们小时候
现在你会不会想我
也许你找到一个人为你守候
我了了
回忆起睛我们小时后
闭上眼睛就能感受
站在窗前跟你说了晚安就走
Woah~离开了我们小时候
现在的你不在想我
这个时候我了了

那次以后我们两个再也没有见面了
我只能说再见

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Feel like fuck! I lost around 2 fucking dollars @ mahjong today! That's one McChicken, one plate chichen rice, approximately 2 bus rides, 2 HelloPandas, 2 boxes of Pocky, 1 cup of bubble tea(with extra pearls somemore), one Cadbury timetime( got change) and lots lots lotSSSS more.

Nevermind, its for the fun of it. But I still very bay gam buan lehh. Hmm. I shall Da Kai Sha Jie the next time and finish them all with one blow the next time round. Wahaha. I WILL RETURN(with better luck next time).

Seriously while I was playing and kelp losing money, I thought about people who lost lots more money than me at casinos, jackpots, soccer. How come they can lost so much overnight and dont feel the pinch at all?

Is it because:
A) They are crazy.
B) They are fucking rich.
C) They does illegal businesses and thus need to rid of their money the fastest way possible.
OR
D) They know they'll have some idiot whom will fork out the money for them.

I know!!
The answer is D!

Cause Mark the Bloodyass used to force me to get money for him whenever he lost. That's why he can gamble like fuck right? Cause he will think, 'An'an that idiot will definitely find money for me one'.

Serious speaking where the fuck did he found the courage to ask me for money one ah? Why the hell is he so shameless??? WHY WHY WHY!!!??? And why did I stupidly helped him find money? Wah lao eh Thinking back I'm really very wei da right, I borrowed 600+ bucks for him leh. Wah piang I was 17 then and I can get so much money. Maybe I should open loanshark firm next time.

I'm digressing. Anyway back to main topic. After mahjong, Meiyun's family went to AMK central for her contact lens and I lombang their ride cause I need to take either 74 or 88 to Ave8 to get the belts from Peiying(nice lady, she offered to help me buy Puma belts @ 40% disc). And I was so clumsy that I accidently pressed the wind window button and shocked the death out of myself. Stupid.

Anyway, I walked from my bus stop to Peiying's house then to NTUC then to the kopitiam opposite my bus stop home to buy rojak for my sis and mum. Then I was so damn lucky, I watched the uncle packing up, ready to leave just as I reached his stall. So I had to balik back to the stall near Peiying's house for the rojak. Maybe the rojak man saw me from a distance and thought to himself, 'This girl so fat, I'd better save her by not selling my rojak to her'. Hence, he pretended to pack in order to no sell food to me. Sad.

Anyway, my arms nearly broke from carrying all the load(2 Belts, 2 Rojaks). Luckily I finished my tea on my way one, or my shoulder would break as well.

*Digression again*
I'm in my living room and suddenly saw this fucking big moth in the middle of my corridor. I waved frantically to CheeSeng whom refused to hiu me. Then I proceeded to want to poke at him when he suddenly said, "I cant see, I cannot see." Fuck it, Obviously he saw it la. I think he is scared of the giant moth, that's why he pretended not to see it. Shall forgive him for that.

Anyway they are eating noodle now, Slurping as loud as they possibly could. I feel hungry. As my hungry pangs start attacking my disgestive system and I try to resist the temptation of the noodles, I shall stop typing now and return to my room to face the 4 walls instead of dying of hunger here in the living room.

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i loved once @ Wednesday, April 26, 2006

By the way, this one I forgot to update. I bought BIGSWEEP today! Finally, after months of saying that I wanna strike Bigsweep, I bought it for the first time in my life.

Coincidently, my Mum bought this season's big sweep too. Is it an indication that we'll both strike it big tomorrow?

Pray for me k?

(Sweet dreams to me, I'm gonna be a $$millionaire$$.)

=)

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i loved once @ Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Blogspot suxs. I couldnt publish anything yesterday and wasted all my time waiting for the stupid this to publish and publish and PUBLISH again, at ZERO percent. wtf. Lousy until laosai la.

24 April 2006

TERRIBLE DAY it was. I went school early in the morning to accompany Meiyun for Comm skills and the lab after that. I shouldnt be in school in the first place cause my lesson was cancelled, CANCELLED. And I only have one lesson on Monday. And I, being the kindhearted soul I am, volunteered to go for the lesson with her cause I know how terrible it is to go into a class full of people you dunno. And guess what? The stupid lecturer threw me out of the lab. He really very the what one lor, I wasnt even disturbing the lesson or what. And I'm paying to be in the school's premises so why cant I be in the lab. Without me, he might have starved to death cause no students = no need of lectures and thus, ===> they can all turn into street beggers.

I hope he kanna diarhoe(laosai til got piles).
He is so damn kia si.
Because of him, I had to go to the library ALONE to read stupid books. NYP only supplies fiction books by Singapore writers. Hai. Really sad case.
I've decided to hate that lecturer from now on.

Went to the sports council beside our school after school to check out the fees for kickboxing. The classes already started 2 weeks ago. We wanted to go Bugis to pray initally, then guess what, it rained. How much more sway can I get?
By the way, I couldnt find my keys in the morning. I think I lost them.

Anyway, pilates here I come!!!!
The pilates lesson shall start on 15 May. But we's not sign up for them yet. Dunno whether Xiaopei wants to anot.

So I went home and the rain and started stuffing myself with food, the muffins I made the day b4 to be exact. I felt so guilty after eating the muffins that I brewed my diet tea (800ml) and finished it off with one gulp.

I laosai-ed whole night.
Fucking sway.

25 April 2006

I wore my new purple off shoulder to school today as i thought I would be meeting Weishan after school.
Knn. I got the dates mixed up. Should be meet her on Thursday.
Then I very bay gam buan and wanted to go to at least one more place before going home. I thought of meeting Peiying for the Puma belts she helped buy. Then I discovered the stupid bank havent cleared my cheque. Fuck it la.

I guai guai went home after that.
No money = must stay at home and rot myself to death.

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i loved once @ Sunday, April 23, 2006

How to kill time when you're damn bored and everything else in life seems to bore you to death?

Read a book?
Go for a movie?
Go dating?
La kopi?
Chit-chat with a friend over the phone?

WRONG!!!

The latest way of killing time intelligently is to bake muffin!

i bought this after work today.

Whahah nobody would had guessed this right? Haha. Baking muffin is fun and kills time ok.

And the process is really very fun. Although the end-result is not very, emph, successful.

me and my mum started off like this...

That's my mum's beautiful hands stirring the mix. Her superhuman speed made the picture blur. See the metal plate with some bluish(may appear black) substance inside it? That's the Blueberries!!

I scooped the mixtures into equal amounts into the papercups trying to be very precise with the blueberries and flour. Cause the instructions inside stated that the papercups should be 2/3 filled.

Then my mother gei kiang and grabbed the spoon while i wasnt noticeing and filled the papercups FULL. She very tik ki one leh. i already told her that the instructions says 2/3 full but she insisted on her ways, claiming that she was baking cake way before my time.

By the way, although the instructions says to add in 1/2 cup water, my mum insisted on more than that even when i argued that muffins are supposed to be not so moist. she won.

and due her "Been baking cakes way before your time" method of filling the paper cups to the brims and me misreading the instructions of adjusting the oven time to 15 mins instead of the 12 mins stated, our first attempt failed. the muffins came out damn chao da and the muffins spilled out from all the sides. the first picture is not clear. But you can see from the second picture what a failure my muffins were.

My second attempt produced better results. Cause stubborn mummy finally realised that if she keep insisiting to fill my paper cups to the brim, her oven will become so messed up that she'll have difficulty cleaning it up later.

My second attempt was more successful! No more chaoda! See the muffins inside the oven. the ones onto are the resultant of my first attempt.

And my third attempt..

Blueberry muffins are not difficult to make after all.

But then the thing is that, because stubborn mother added too much water to my muffins, they ended up tasting like the chinese Huat kue instead of real, english muffins. Nevertheless, they were delicious either ways!

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I heard this loud "Bang" sound outside my house.
Another gunshot?

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sickening. i don wanna work tomorrow. so boring and tiring. anyone got job to intro??

i've just finished packing my room. my room always bear some similarities to a pigsty. dunno why also. anyway i'v very knn de pekcek with Zheng Jiajia and Chan Cheeseng. Zheng Jiajia because she insisted on keeping the clothes that i would deem useless despite the fact that they had been untouched for like @ least 2 yrs, saying that she still want those clothes all that bullshit. ya, keep those clothes that you wouldnt even look at for the next decade to come and increase my difficulty in searching for MY clothes amidst ur mess.
and Chan Cheeseng was even more worse. i opened my drawer and saw that he threw all the junk that he dont want into MINE drawer. there were scotchtape, some cable and abit more rubbish. do my drawer look like one fucking big dustbin to YOU?

went kbox with xiaopei, jess, gary and xiaoli yesterday. we sang till a point whereby everyone was tired and gary was slowly falling into a slumber when suddenly angela talked bout dor**. den everyone suddenly became alert, especially. wah piang. dor**'s bf and gary r really lookalike man.

shld had heard gary sang the "AHHH" part of William so's song. really funny. like so into the song like that. marina kbox not bad, the room quite big and well decorated. it drawned on to me the fact that i've been too cooped up in my life in neighbouring places(amk, tpy) to wanna go town for entertainment.

i'm getting fatter. and i know why already.
Everytime i feel depressed i will eat. and the depression state will worsen with every bite. and i will hallucinate my fats multiplying at double its usual rate. den i will feel sad because i will be becoming the fattest person on earth ever. my face, stomach and arms will bloat up and i will look like one female sow walking on her hind legs and speaking human language.
upon these thoughts, i wil get more depressed still and eat more.
The vicious cycle continues.

That's why I am so fat now.

fuck.

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i loved once @ Friday, April 21, 2006

i wanna drink minestrone. who wanna accompany me go pizza hut drink.
minestrone + hawaiian pizza + cocacola = wonderful fantastic BLLURPP!

lol
damn boliao.

school sucks today as usual la. mr yap was as useless as he is short. could help me at all. i'm going with zongda tml to find that seah fellow. hope he will pity me and don let me stay so darn long in nyp la.

anyway went orchard with meiyun and xiaopei to meet gary for meiyun's bday celebration. she seemed to be celebrating her bday for like over a week already. and planning for MOS tml. it really amazes me to see someone celebrating bday for so long. anyway, hopw she enjoys her night @ MOS tml =)
we went wisma to develop their photos 1st before proceding to scotts for ajisan ramen after meeting up with gary. meiyun and gary ordered ramen and some side dishes while me and angela chose to "see them eat". well, i m on a strict diet(as usual la hor) and angela said she wasnt hungry. *but let me tell u a secret Meiyun, incase u happen to come across this article, Angela actually told me that the noodles smelt very nice when we entered the restaurant(you get what i mean right?)*
anyway, we went for Rochor Soya Beancurb(!!) aft ajisan. i love soyabean man! be it in solid form or liquid form. if i were to choose between chocolate and soyabean, hmm. actually i dunno what to choose la. =.="

anyway went home quite early today. i'm feeling so slEepYyyY....
shall sleep now. pray for me. there is so much on my mind i think it'll burst soon. i hope that Seah guy is a sympathic fellow.

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i loved once @ Thursday, April 20, 2006

Its very late already so i shall do a quick update.

I wasnt sleeping well these few days as usual. i had been having insomnia for the past few weeks, that is, throughout the whole of the holiday. and it got worse last night. i couldnt sleep last night and when i finally did sleep, i couldnt wake up.
ok, its true that i always cant hear my alarm clock. but i always manage to wake up with morning calls.
the thing is, i adjusted 3 alarms to ring this morn and i couldnt hear a single one. the worst this is that meiyun called me several times and i dint hear that as well. wtf la. made me miss my morning lecture. i guess so my sudden deaf is caused by my nightmare. i cant recall what i dreamt about but i remembered kicking about during the dream. i woke up in coldsweat and shocked myself to death when i loked @ my clock. i'm LATE. cannot go for lesson le.

hmm. attended my 1st 3866 lesson today and wanted to kill myself for being so lost in the lesson. my com isnt connected to the sch's system so i shared com with meiyun and we almost died in embarrassment in the process of getting what the lecturer wanted done done. hai. i wish i was back in E8 then at least we can ask around and all that. i must get the lecture notes asap and read up b4 the labs next time. no one can help me now except for myself.

went meiyun's hse after lesson today to play mahjong. i won $2!
ok. i know its not alot. but we were playing very small amts. had we been playing big amts, i could had won 10+bucks. but i dont seem to have the luck for that kind of money. everytime we play big, i will end up losing. better be contented. $2 is better that $-?? right?
=)

i guess my this year resolution will be brief.
ok, new yr passed long time ago.
den, my resolution now is,

1) Study hard
2) Be nicer to my parents. i'm too rude. must change
3) Save money (I know i'd said this dozens of time, but its for real this time la)
4) Slim down!! (I cant, i've got no determination)

That's all. simple and nice right? like my blog. just changed the skin. abit too plain le la. plain till ---> boring looking. will change the background color when i'm damn free.

shall sleep now.
yawnz.

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i loved once @ Tuesday, April 18, 2006

I'm sitting infront of my com feeling damn frustated and irritated right now. i just finished one magnum mini and half of cheeseng's Lay's potato chips. hai. serves me right should my weight go upscale the next time i measure it.

today's another bad day as i tried to change my timetable but failed miserably cos the bloody courses kept clashing each other around. luckily that Yap guy(he took pity on me) later decided to call his superiors to ask if i could do my math safter the end of this sem. hope its successful this time round. i don wanna stay one more fucking sem in nyp...

so shiok! tomorrow maybe going play mahjong. i know la i always lose. but then, its fun! so play small amounts will do! =)

nothing much to blog about le. goodnight to me. yawnz.

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I'm sitting infront of my com feeling damn frustated and irritated right now. i just finished one magnnum miniand half of cheeseng's Lay's potato chips. hai. serves me right should my weight go upscale the next time i measures it.

today's another bad day as i tried to change my timetable but failed miserably cos the bloody courses kept clashing each other around. luckily that Yap guy(he took pity on me) later decided to call his superiors to ask if i could do my mathsafter the end of this sem. hope its successful this time round. i don wanna stay one more fucking sem in nyp...

so shiok! tomorrow maybe going play mahjong. i know la i always lose. but then, its fun! so play small amounts will do! =)

nothing much to blog about le. goodnight to me. yawnz.

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i loved once @ Monday, April 17, 2006

Nice song by Cascada.
Everytime We Touch

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last. need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat slow.
I can't let you go. Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last, need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat slow I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss, I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast.
I want this to last. need you by my side.

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its so dammit fucking suck when i realised i cant continue my course without first completing my 2nd yr maths. and that most probably will cause me to stay in nyp for half a fucking year more. the system is so sucky and inflexible. y cant i just do my maths later on instead of now? its not linked up with any of my core modules now anyway. some people are just so stupid.

anyway, i met meiyun for breakfast this morning and managed to seat thru her lesson without her lecturer driving me away. instead, she was being nice letting me participate in her class and all. hope i can change to her class instead of the one i am in currently.

saw almost all my e8 mates during their mates just now. hai. had i put just a little more effort into my studies i would probably have the chance to seat and laugh with them in the same class instead of the one i'm in now. no point crying over spilt milk, its time to move on.

went funan aft school to collect my free gift and i was really Sway. it was all sunny and hot on my way from nyp to interchange, and guess what, the skies darkened when i reached cityhall and, by the time i finished collecting all my things, it was already raining cats and dogs. and here wasnt any shelter to bus stops, only taxi stands. i joined in the queue and waiting for 20minutes before my patience wore off. NO CAB in sight. i wanna go home, bath and meet angela they all @ 6+ so i cant possibly wait for the rain to stop or for the taxis as the time was already 4+ then. so i braved the rain and literally strolled to the bus stop which required me to cross 2 traffic lights to reach it. by then i was already soaked. and nb, of all days i have to choose today to not bring tissue out. i couldnt dry myself at all and had to tolerate chill in the bus for nearly an hr. the bus driver crazy one, i think he wanted to freeze all of us to death. and that's y i am updating my blog now. i'm not meeting them already cos i feel sick already. pray that i wont be really sick. i wanna go school tomorrow to beg the seah fellow to let me take at least one more module.

pray for me.

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i loved once @ Sunday, April 16, 2006

tomorrow sucks. it definitely will. landing in a specialisation that i loathe and getting 2 modules minus away from my timetable, how can i enjoy?
fuck.

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